Last night, after watching Conan, I went to sleep. However, it's not so happy to fall with Morpheus this time. We can never expect to dream what we want to dream, maybe this is the significance of dreaming.
At the beginning, I was arrested because of someone died. I was not the killer but nobody believed this except myself, and I thought that it wouldn't help whether I defend myself or not. Then they put me in jail and I didn't feel so sad because I still believe someone will find the real killer in the near future.
The prison cell was the desk I have been used during my senior-middle-school days. There was full of codes and things for my PhD research on this desk. After seeing that I don't know why I even felt a little relax and thought that life is not so hard after being an unlucky convict.
After about one week, my warden (The strange thing is she was my teacher when I was in junior-high-school) told me recently people developed a new pill with 50 percent chance of death, and very, very painful. The prison decided to let me do this experiment, this afternoon! "Oh, Noooooo! I even didn't have any chance to say goodbye to my mom!!", I answered loudly, but the ruthless warden said I have no other choice.
A bolt from the blue!! I cried and cried, nobody noticed and nobody helped. Every one just focused on their things and pretended that I was not here. After stop crying, the first thing I thought was finding my mom, at least I need to see her and say sorry to her before taking this damned drug.
The second strange thing is that my mom lived in another prison cell, very close to mine. She was going to take a nap when I find her. She asked me why I looked so crazy. I felt so heartbroken and could not say anything. Tear out of my eyes, like they are part of me. I cann't speak and cann't do anything, just let her wait.
But my rational brain didn't stop work, he told me the next step was find my warden, let her prove that I will be die, and the warden's situation was not better than me, she lived in another prison cell, hahahahahahaha. Suddenly I really want to laugh, but then I realized that no one will laugh before this ridiculous way to die.
After clam down, my mother, my warden and me find a quiet corner and make sure that wouldn't disturb others lunch. I told my mother all the things and said sorry one hunderd times. I knew it's still not enough to let her know that I love her so much. However, I can do nothing when everything goes on this way...
It's really hurt even before taking that damned pill. Fortunately I woke up before eat it, before my heart broken. Hope in another world Vivian still alive with 50 percent chance.