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An absurd dream


Last night, after watching Conan, I went to sleep. However, it's not so happy to fall with Morpheus this time. We can never expect to dream what we want to dream, maybe this is the significance of dreaming.

At the beginning, I was arrested because of someone died. I was not the killer but nobody believed this except myself, and I thought that it wouldn't help whether I defend myself or not. Then they put me in jail and I didn't feel so sad because I still believe someone will find the real killer in the near future.

The prison cell was the desk I have been used during my senior-middle-school days. There was full of codes and things for my PhD research on this desk. After seeing that I don't know why I even felt a little relax and thought that life is not so hard after being an unlucky convict.

After about one week, my warden (The strange thing is she was my teacher when I was in junior-high-school) told me recently people developed a new pill with 50 percent chance of death, and very, very painful. The prison decided to let me do this experiment, this afternoon! "Oh, Noooooo! I even didn't have any chance to say goodbye to my mom!!", I answered loudly, but the ruthless warden said I have no other choice.

A bolt from the blue!! I cried and cried, nobody noticed and nobody helped. Every one just focused on their things and pretended that I was not here. After stop crying, the first thing I thought was finding my mom, at least I need to see her and say sorry to her before taking this damned drug.

The second strange thing is that my mom lived in another prison cell, very close to mine. She was going to take a nap when I find her. She asked me why I looked so crazy. I felt so heartbroken and could not say anything. Tear out of my eyes, like they are part of me. I cann't speak and cann't do anything, just let her wait.

But my rational brain didn't stop work, he told me the next step was find my warden, let her prove that I will be die, and the warden's situation was not better than me, she lived in another prison cell, hahahahahahaha. Suddenly I really want to laugh, but then I realized that no one will laugh before this ridiculous way to die.

After clam down, my mother, my warden and me find a quiet corner and make sure that wouldn't disturb others lunch. I told my mother all the things and said sorry one hunderd times. I knew it's still not enough to let her know that I love her so much. However, I can do nothing when everything goes on this way...

It's really hurt even before taking that damned pill. Fortunately I woke up before eat it, before my heart broken. Hope in another world Vivian still alive with 50 percent chance.

   
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突然想起blogcn还没有升级的时候,我那个粉色的页面。也突然想起那段有关奢靡颓唐的话

彼时此时,我竟是没有什么长进

昨天听妈妈说,我大学到北京报道那一天,司机开车到北京后,我的第一句话竟然是:从今以后,在这北京,我就独自一人了。。。

妈妈说当时我说完那句话,舅舅和我妈坐在后排,对望了一眼,两个人眼圈都要红了。。。

此刻彼刻,我还是那般没心没肺

当时若不是那小司机聪明,岔开了话题,可要怎么收场

如今已进京十余年,期间风起云卷,泪和欢笑,种种种种。。。。。。情何以堪

果然过了九年,我还是原来的我

幸还是不幸?

于我,是幸吧